July 18, 2018
Mathew 26:20-22… When it was evening He reclined at table with the twelve. And as they were eating He said, “Truly, I say to you, one of you will betray me.”
They were very sorrowful and began to say to him, one after the other, “Is it I lord?”
Every time i have read this I have been perplexed by the reaction of the disciples. It seems they did not know who it was that would betray Him. Each man asked if perhaps he was the one. Today, for the first time, I am noticing that although they had walked with him for over 3 years, they did not know their own reactions to the truth. That hits home, for although I make the best of plans, I don’t always follow through. I sing songs like, “I will follow you.” But, I wonder if I really will. My actions don’t always align with my intentions. I am much less spiritual than I want to be. I wonder if I am writing to myself alone or if others of you experience the same defugalties. It does not suffice to say, “I had the best of intentions.”
Another point of interest in this paragraph: Nobody, including Judas, seemed to know that he was the man. His actions and blatant attitude did not give him away. From that we learn that either the other disciples were blind and dumb, or that Judas was a good deceiver. Another possibility is that the problem was in Judas’s heart, and the men couldn’t see there. We learn, early in history, that God sees into our hearts and we see only the outward stuff. In any gathering of people, you could be in the presence of a betrayer and not know. I am not suggesting that we all be on a witch hunt; I am suggesting that sometimes testing shows us the condition of our heart. Allow the test to work.
I am going to look up a verse…
Matthew 13:20-21… As for what was sown on rocky ground, this is the one who receives the word and immediately receives it with joy; yet he has no root in himself, but endures for awhile, and when tribulation or persecution arises, on account of the word, immediately, he falls away.
The word does not need any help, but we do. Testing can either blow the word away… or cause it to put down roots and remain stable. Be stable.